ashishrai's Blog

At the core of my heart I am very reserved person, love to enjoy the sound of silence, not of very adventurous typed but won’t even step back if the opportunity comes. Every day I feel a sort of confidence in me that nothing can go wrong, still aware of fact that it’s too hard to find a trusted source of encouragement from outside in this vivacious world. It’s my realization that “what’s best for you is not the one you always get”- in spite of this fact there is still hope; hope like a bird who searches for light in early dawn to make its journey a success. One or the other way we all are connected to each other by means of hope that empowers and encourages us even in our toughest times.

There are times when I feel reflective, surrounded by someone; someone unknown being familiar, present at the moment but doesn’t exist, revolving around me like mirage –feels real tends to be virtual, a part here the other nowhere. It scares me and makes me feel caught in an ugly middle position when actions to keep things going on in right directions become frail leading to hollowness and futility.

Every time I look into the mirror and ask the other side of me “who are you?” the other side replies the question as “who am I?”. Maybe some questions are best answered in terms of questions only! Interesting and contradictory to think so!!! Its all about perception maybe totally not sure of the fact that what the other side of me trying to convey , as if there’s a sort of world war three going on inside my brain , it feels like as  my veins are bursting off and then a moment later everything gets surrounded  in nostalgic cold enclosing the bright midst mortifying me in all aspects …………By any means trying harder than ever to cross every bar and cross every line to make things right, to patch up the loop holes, its bursts even harder ending with sorrow and regrets. Still on my part I pretend to be strong and convince myself that whatsoever be the fate of situation an uncertain way or lack of stubborn thoughts; won’t let a setback towards progress of mine in right direction.

With no words of ear bursting silence surrounding my cold tremor heart, walking on path of quicksand I said to myself –“I BELIEVE” …………..I BELIEVE in cosmos where there is someone being the strongest light directing the world, being pride of idealism in everyone’s eyes with utmost patience, strong will and invincible precision that guides me as a source to rise above the pity prejudices and shine like a pole star crowning earth like a diamond  in queens tiara.

For every problems and dissatisfactory consequences leading to chaos, I tried asking myself the reason of it in the front of mirror, to find the answer whether am I the only one responsible for it? It is said “NO ONE KNOWS YOU BETTER THAN YOU YOURSELF” is it true??????? The other side of mine in the mirror has a vague enigmatic charm that gives me an essence  of being born out from fire like a phoenix, nurtured by struggle to be calm , composed and divine…….he is surely a lot more stronger in character than me , I see him as a person that doesn’t gets barren in intense sun , nor a melody of change or man of principles ……………………………….he is a  spell of progress……………………………even on the mountain of principles he never tried to carve life in accordance with it ,instead dwelt on tough paths to be a light that shows path in darkest times.

Holding my hand in his hand, I touch him, feel him, and breathe him. I find him everywhere reminding me that I am not a line of horizon; I am bitter truth of land and sky. I adore him. He is my inspiration, my progress ,my balance ; giving me a glimpse of past , present, and future, his value can’t be calculated in it ;forming an indispensable part of mine regardless  of time, space and boundaries, neither needs any recognition in me………………it became from truth to fact for me that he was guiding through his principles seeding as appreciable character in me to enhance my dignity to reach my goals……

 When, where, and why he is with me? …….now hardly matters, what matters the most now was that he was always there to catch me whenever I fall, although being surrounded by tons of superficial people due to difference of opinion it’s hard to find guidance and incentive, but at the end of the day what I got is me myself all alone standing by my side all alone…….I am alone but not lonely, the man on the other side of mirror was still standing   holding my hand in his hand and admiring me. I felt energized with hope and affection. It’s interesting to know that the image that was a cause of distress to me eventually became my strength. I became obsessed for him, when I moved away from mirror moved far away from me, when I look into the mirror he was there; out of my sight he wasn’t. I came closer to mirror and said “habeas corpus” and urged him to stay with me forever.

In deep anxiety and anguish I shouted and yelled with tears to pled him to break out from the mirror and be with me………I punched the mirror as hardly I could to make him free from the prison. With my blooded hands the mirror broke and got shattered into pieces on floor. I looked around and searched him in broken pieces ; piece by piece……I found him in a  piece lying in the corner….he was there ! He was there, standing still and the enigmatic charm and watery eyes and said to me “what you have done my boy? …it hurts to me when you cry, I feel the pain when you bleed , I am your joy and your sorrow , I am space ,I am time ……….I am you……I am there every time, am there everywhere, I live in your veins and breath in your lungs ,just  BELIEVE and I will be there for you always………forever.” I Stood up and wiped blood from my hands and walked towards the window with his words in my head…..it felt light with doors of my mind open and the mist surrounding me vanished off….i can breathe in the fresh air and the nostalgic silence went away….i turned back and looked at the broken pieces of the mirror and realized that one can have infinite number of issues regarding life and questions surrounding it. Every question that comes across need not necessary to be answered. to find an answer there must be an apt question too. A few questions have their answers within them, few don’t, some questions need analysis, some need to be examined. It’s all about perspective….THE answers to the questions are based upon the principle of channelizing you energy to analyze the situation. Even expression includes silence in it. The act to analyze the situation doesn’t means to take an action, silence is the biggest action at the moment of dissatisfaction, regrets and sorrow.

                                   
                                                                                   
The education system in India has undergone many reforms leaving behind orthodox methods and moving ahead with more qualitative output, building the youth self efficient for representation at global arena. One such recent initiative is to aid education by providing an elaborated access to IT Education and promote computer literacy in rural areas by connecting the rural youth with ongoing technological boom, by policy cum device named “sakshat”. It aims at imparting education using ‘e-learning’ and ‘e-books’. This method was first adapted in schools of Singapore  with aim of providing more interactive learning via an i-pad which resulted in replacing books…….sounds more of like paper saving campaign. Few years back few years back the government’s aim was to make Mumbai similar to shanghai……..A big flop show! Let’s see will this new scheme   “sakshat” able to set new trends in education of India and its impact on Techno world.
 “Sakshat” is Sanskrit derived Hindi word which means “before your eyes”. The union of HRD Ministers took this word for their upcoming program of introducing the world’s first advanced and the cheapest Tablet-laptop hybrid i-pad students studying at all levels. Till now we have heard what Sakshat is for, let’s discover more about it and have a sneak-peek into this device.
Sakshat is basically a hand held computer that has the capability of performing most of operations of standard Personal Computer. Its main concept has been derived from tablet computing devices. It was introduced in India during NATIONAL MISSION ON EDUCTION PROGRAME (2009) organized by HRD Ministry and its prototype on 22 July 2010 by Mr. Kapil Sibbal.
The distribution of this device is meant for students studying at various levels and then to common people at a subsidized rate ranging from 1100 to 2200. The overall concept of this deice came from a Canadian firm “Datawind Ltd” further assisted by prestigious institutions of India like IIT & IISc. IIT Rajasthan is leading the way with development and testing of this device.
“Sakshat” is a very attractive device with expected 5710 inch touch screen with inbuilt keyboard. The weight of this device is expected to be of 2-3Kg with an outer casing of device composed of smooth rubber matte finishing. The appearance of this device is more of like an i-pad, with features similar to Laptop and Tablet PC. It works on Arnoid based system with features like USB host, USB port 2.0, and HDMI port along with other multimedia ports. It has a RAM of 2GB, with inbuilt hard drive of 32GB and supports an external hard drive of 32GB. The device even has a SIM slot for 3G functions and SD slot expandable up to 8GB. The device is Wi-Fi enabled with Fixed Ethernet security. The video conference facility via a 2MP webcam , advanced multimedia support system and projector display are the main attraction of this device , that are adding an enigmatic charm to this device. Further the device supports Open Office, SciLab, internet and java based applications. The energy consumption of this device is 2watt and has a solar charging option.
    
For large scale production of this device HCL was given contract through an open bid but later HCL withdrew its hands back on financial issues with Indian government. HCL demanded 600 million rupees in bank guarantee funds instead the government has provided only 6.5 million dollars for mail line production of I-pad and didn’t agreed on HCL’s Bank Guarantee  Funds.  Thus , the previous bid was dissolved and contract was provided to a new company. The expected date of release of this device was  june-july 2011 but was reschedule to October 5,2011.
The controversy is not only related to production and contract problems ,the further issues like cost uncertainty , design format make the situation worse. The Chinese company “Hivision” claims Sakshat I-pad to be duplicate of its SpeedPad-PWS700HA”&”PWS700FS. This controversy has made blemish on the most trusted institutes IIT and IISc and they claim Sakshat i-pad to be their own innovation. The fluctuating estimation of cost makes its further confusing. However in spite of all the controversy yhe worlds leading OS provider Microsoft has offered ‘windows-CE’ to this device and Google is in further negotiation with government.
On overall analysis of this device, if it is implemented successfully it might mark a great milestone in history of computing not only in India but also around the world. For most of people it would be a dream come true to have a heavy feature loaded  device at a very cheap rate, maybe it’s the gleaming side of  this policy, just like the other side of the coin-on the darker side of the Sakshat the big picture is still in midst. Any sort of presumptions and large expectations from this device would be like running after mirage in desert that would lead to hollowness and futility.